Some advice....

This took me two weeks to write. That's how hard it's been for me to write anything lately....

I went to a press conference today. It was mostly boring, probably too long and more disorganized than it looked. Plus it seemed that most people, the press included, didn’t care to be there. To some extent the invited athletes cared. Probably because they got a chance to feel important in a sport that usually leaves them feeling largely ignored outside of those closely related to the sport.

But the most interesting thing that happened was that a kid gave me his card. He said that he remembered me and that he wanted to talk to me. That maybe I could help him. For the most part, I’m flattered. But in my head I’m saying, “Shit I was hoping that you’d know somebody that can help me. I ain’t nobody.” He was impressed by me because of my job and I was impressed by him because he’s a great athlete. Which brings me to a larger question: Why aren’t we more impressed with ourselves?

There’s something to be said for humility of course. My arm is certainly long enough to pat my own back. But where is the line between acknowledging yourself and being an arrogant fuck? Now the phrases seem far in relation but the reality isn’t. It’s as simple as someone says, “Hey, that shirt is hot.” To which you respond, “I know. It is kinda fire ain’t it?” But you could also say thank you, knowing that you’re shirt is hot and then go to the mall and look for an even hotter shirt. You could also simply appreciate the fact that you made a good choice that day in the mall and take that moment to feel good about yourself.

I digress. The long analogy is simply to say that we live in a world obsessed with success, however one defines it. And because of that we’re in a chase to find something intangible, something that you’ll likely define and then redefine once you think you’ve gotten closer to it. Whenever I’ve gotten a raise I decided I needed to make even more money. Whenever I’ve gotten a job I decided that I need a better job. Now to some extent that is just fine. Never being satisfied forces a person to continually look to improve themselves and their current situation. But at some point we all need to take inventory.

We need to look at our college diploma and smile and the accomplishment. Look at the fact that you still have a job or that your boss maybe paid you a compliment last week. If you don’t have a job, then you should be proud of yourself for not turning to the streets yet. Commend yourself for holding back from knocking off the local liquor store or kicking the first person in the face that tells you how much they hate their job when all you’ve been asking God to provide for you for months is a paycheck. Take account of how diligent you’ve been in looking for a job or making the most out of the job you do have, or at least trying to.

Sometimes you need to be proud of yourself. Even if you need to look for a reason to. If you don’t suck your own dick, who will?

Sometimes you need to take account of your talents. Get in touch with your star player. Yes, the star player on your team is you. If it’s not, then you need to spend extra time in practice changing the plays and making yourself the go-to guy.

Thank yourself for being exactly who you are. Then challenge yourself to be even better.


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C